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Feels like ages since I have been to blog, well it has been nearly two weeks man.
Since my last blog I’ve not been back to group, and I don’t really miss it. I’ve had a lot going on in the past few weeks and I’ve managed to cope without using, which is great. I went in to see my key worker but I didn’t have an appointment and he was too busy with other appointments too see me which is cool. Dafty here should have made one, eh?
At the moment I’m enjoying my recovery and not going to group. So I’ve made the decision that I’m going to phone my key worker and go and see him and let him know my thoughts, and what I’m doing.
The last thing that I want to do is to leave and just disappear into the night ‘cos, when I think back, without my key worker I wouldn’t be where I am today and wouldn’t be strong enough to do what I’m going to do. But at the same time I can’t help but feel as if I am giving him a kick in the teeth ‘cos I haven’t finished the programme on offer to me.
You see I’ve been here before (recovery) and ended up relapsing, and I’m not doing that this time. So I have drawn on past experiences and what I know I have to do in my recovery just now, and made the decisions.
It’s just unfortunate that they don’t include the group that I go to, but at the end of the day I know what I need to do to keep my house in order. And that’s what I intend to do. I feel that over the past few months that my key worker has gotten to know me very well, and can’t help but think that he already knows whats coming.
Well I feel that that was a bit of a rant, so if you stuck with it to the end thanks for reading! But that’s what the site is for isn’t it? Not ranting but getting things out.
Hope everyone is well and safe.
Rossco
Hey Rossco,
How good to hear from you. I don’t think this is a rant at all, as you say Wired In is there to get things out, and sometimes just writing things down seems to help.
At the end of the day groups are not for everybody. And if you feel that it is not happening for you in a group situation that is fair enough I think.
Just be honest with your key worker – you are not letting anyone down by making your own choices – and make sure that you have other things in place to keep supporting you on your journey.
Heh Ross it`s Iain Donald here mate you certainly seem tae have made up yer mind, all I would say that I would personally think hard about it, it`s not just a possible relapse it`s the possibility of worse, but saying that if ye have thought about it and still thinking the same the choice is always yours, your recovery is your recovery, nobody else`s. As long as your sure, I have made decisions similar in my past and recovery slipped ever further away but that was me. Take care anyway.
